fuck.
fuck fuck fuck
this hurts



My Sparky died today.. and we weren't even fucking there with him
he died without his family there
his last moments on earth were without his mommy and his daddy and his siblings
we were all gone

And his brothers (Captain Morgan, McLoven, and Jake Ryan) were there, probably wondering why Bubba won't wake up..
He went for a swim (accidentally, of course.. he's 14 years old, blind, and can't walk well) and he swam with ease.. but it was too much for his heart to handle

oh my god.. i can't fucking handle this. You guys know how damn much i love my dogs.
He was my child... I don't think i'm going to be able to face going back to my dad's house and not having him at the door to greet me.
This sucks ass. I wanna punch something.

I just wish I could've given him one last kiss